we had an aquarium ,when i was a kid

we let the fish poop,eat and die in it

would let the dirt settle,making the water unclear…

would make the fish less visible…then once in a month when it would get very dirty…

we would get our hands dirty and put the fish in a smaller vessel,when we moved them,they would gasp for their air i.e. water for a while,some would struggle and fall on the ground…

most of them would get back to normal,once put back in the jar…

some would get sick and recover while some would succumb…

would that stop us from cleaning the aquarium?

would not cleaning it regularly prevent the deaths?

would the dirty aquarium not become like a gas chamber?

would it not lead to sickness ?

well im on the journey of cleansing my minds aquarium,i have opened my long standing wound for dressing

it pains, it hurts, i shriek i cry…i go quiet…

i know it hurts my vicinity as well,but can the flow ,can the journey be stopped?

i am trying hard,really hard to see clearly but in vain,the water is dirty,stagnant,the settled dirt has surfaced…

but i can do nothing but wait…holding on to faith ,giving up on hope…

i am waiting patiently,patiently to see clearly…

Contd. On the second page…