i see myself as a pendulum
bouncing back and forth
between arrogance and doubt
i see myself swaying here and there
coming back in the centre
swaying away again
i think to myself may be i am the one seeing
may be i am the bolt staying
i think i get tired i think again
i step back and observe
all this drama i create
laugh at it,it makes me cry at times
i say enough is enough
bring it on
whatever it is
i will go with the flow
i will free myself to just be as it is
i question this ‘i’
it is blurred than before
i question this ‘i’
and wooooof here it passes by
we had an aquarium ,when i was a kid
we let the fish poop,eat and die in it
would let the dirt settle,making the water unclear…
would make the fish less visible…then once in a month when it would get very dirty…
we would get our hands dirty and put the fish in a smaller vessel,when we moved them,they would gasp for their air i.e. water for a while,some would struggle and fall on the ground…
most of them would get back to normal,once put back in the jar…
some would get sick and recover while some would succumb…
would that stop us from cleaning the aquarium?
would not cleaning it regularly prevent the deaths?
would the dirty aquarium not become like a gas chamber?
would it not lead to sickness ?
well im on the journey of cleansing my minds aquarium,i have opened my long standing wound for dressing
it pains, it hurts, i shriek i cry…i go quiet…
i know it hurts my vicinity as well,but can the flow ,can the journey be stopped?
i am trying hard,really hard to see clearly but in vain,the water is dirty,stagnant,the settled dirt has surfaced…
but i can do nothing but wait…holding on to faith ,giving up on hope…
i am waiting patiently,patiently to see clearly…
Contd. On the second page…
Pass it on and do return
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@sirphira_ghumakkad ke dwara vilambit
People turn to God, and spirituality, when they experience suffering,I did too,turned to Bhagwad Geeta
Vishada means sadness or sorrow, and yoga means the state.(my interpretation)
The first chapter of Geeta is about Arjuna’ sorrow,and doubt,he was taken upon by grief ,grief of what lay in front of him,doubt about what is right and what is not.
Why was Arjuna filled with sorrow in the battlefield? Arjuna the mightiest warrior of all times,the learned disciple of Lord Krishna was sad?Did that make him any less courageous?
It was primarily because he was emotionally attached to his relations and family members . Attachment is a human value.People experience fear and anxiety at the prospect of losing something,in the prospect of seperation
Being human, Arjuna felt the same. His state of mind also revealed that he had preferences and biases in life. We all have likes and dislikes and Arjuna was not different. He had attraction for life and aversion to death. He identified himself with his mind and body, which made him feel vulnerable. Even if you have trained well under a spiritual master for long, in moments of crisis you may act like a normal human being and experience stress. It happened to Arjuna, although he too was well-versed in the knowledge of the scriptures and possessed the knowledge of the Self.
Sorrow is a modification of the mind, books in Psychiatry have also mentioned mania of extreme happiness to be a defence mechanism against sorrow.
Being sad and anxious to little extent in crisis situations like these are normal.You are not alone.
I am not alone.
Being Sad at times is normal, giving up at times is normal,we are not sages ,we are humans.We feel therefore we are human.
If you study life carefully, you will realize that sorrow opens our eyes to the truths of our existence. It makes us reflective and introspective.it gives depth, compassion and empathy.
Stop judging yourself for giving up. Be kind to yourself.
Learning important lessons from the difficulties and sorrows in your life makes you wiser.
Karma does the same. It chisels our thinking and behavior.Trust the almighty,times are tough ,but we are not alone,We are all connected in a collective consciousness,We are all a part of Him ,he is a part of all of us,Rekindle what you have always had, rekindle your spiritual being,sit with yourself meditate,help others,serve others .
Spread love and positivity.
we are in this together ♥️.